06 Dec 09, Sunday.

Skipped church again.
Don't know why, it just seem so far far away from god..
I can't remember was the last time i prayed quietly...
It's like missing something from the part of life but just don't feel like going that place anymore!
Perhaps, just scared people to ask me about results & also the future studies and stuff.
Man, hate it when this happens! Really lazy to think all bout it..the feelings sucks
It's really stucked in the middle wondering, childishly...
Thinking, hey...why aren't there any replies from friends?
What are friends meant to be for?
To lend you thier helping hand when you need them? to lend you their pairs of ears when you need somebody to give you comfort and advice?
Everything seem gone totally wrong, maybe it just my fault of not being a good-enough friend.
It seem that people will only care much about you when they needed your help, and you will be totally forgotten and abandoned.
It may also been a great reason why I don't dare to go after a girl, no faith? maybe everything was just me. I not as close as how other friends are to their parents, they could just share with the thier parents about everything, well atlesat most of the things but not me. It like, so damn f*cking hard to get somebody to listen to me. Perhaps it's just my attitude. The feelings is weird, when you first taught somebody actually care about you, and then suddenly he/she just abandoned you at the side. Hell, time to get over it. I really gotta think all-over-again and start changing, gotta learned to be a better self, can't depend on others right? But still, I don;t think we are meant to be together, we are from 2 different world, totally opposite, still, you're so beautiful~ that's is always the truth! Goodbyes!