25th Dec 09' MERRY CHRITMAS?

It's christmas day already, but why ain't there the feeling, the joy, the excitement before chritmas?
It's a special christmas this year, year 2009 is coming to the end and it also meant that my highschool life has ended officially. Life after high school ain't as perfect as I taught. There are so many plans before spm, and it's Chritmas already, I didn't raelly started with the plans yet. That's not it, around 8 more days to go and it's time to attend the national service. What could happen in the camp? From the mouth of the seniors, it sound interesting tho...

Thinking back about highschool life. The most enjoyable year I had was form5. There are just too many things I learned this year. Yes, I ain't good enough in doing social works, I'm not having a good temper, don't really care much or think before I talk which I used to do last time. But hey! This is me! I love the me today comparing the old me. I WAS emo, I WAS! People change!

Form5 was the first year I got myself back into sports, well mainly basketball only. USed to play basketball when I was in pri-school. Yea, that's why I had my size. HAHAHA Still, thorugh it I found the gang of friends, the besties. It was the first year to really take part in a basketball games. Well, it wasn't MSSD, the MSSD is a real embracement for me. All I remembered in MSSD is I rolled myself on the court after not more then 5mins the game started and I'm on bench again. LOL The cahaya cup was at least better. Gotten second runner up when I only attend twice after minor injuries on the second game. What a pro team we have back there. sigh.

After national service it will be the time to get myself into college or uni's. can't picture anything yet. Should I take up hospitality or media studies? I used to think hospitality are part of culinary arts, actually it depends on what course the college offers. Berjaya should be good for hospitality, but it would be hard to get ptptn lond for it I guess. Media studies are under Mass Com, can't decide which collge provides better one yet. Some say should pick up Taylor's or Sunway. Cause it's more famous....

Haiz...maybe just gotta decide later when I have extra time in the camp. :)
Tata! MERRY CHRITMAS! HOHOHO

|H|O|L|I|D|A|Y|

HOLIDAY! 3rd day of holiday.
Still, nothing to do.
The medical check up? Hell, don't mention it.
reach there around 9 this morning.
The nurse is really funny. First she ask me to fill in a form, to make registeration. After an hour she said if you think you're healthy then there's no need to come for the check up. WTF?! My dad didn't go to work early just because he had to fetch me to the clinic, and the whole family had not had the breakfast since, dad taught that they may be blood test for the check up. Man! One hour standing plus the time to find the F*cking clinic. Ridiculous man!

Night, went out for dinner at some place call Puteri, Puchong. One of dad's friend recomand us a chinese shop. The shop name is call "广西仔", the food was nice. Chicken, pork curry, sup inside the coconut & pork with yam. LOL, memang I'm damn good in eating, see my size also know right? HAHAHA One thing sad about it was....I saw something that reminds me of her. Yea, got sudden emo that time. ><' Well, the feeling never stay for long. After dinner it's still kinda early, so we went the IOI mall, never been there for years! It's amazing to see the development that had been carried on. But....you know what? The guard halau us, because we are in a lorry. MAn! WTF is this? Lorry so what? They have the open air car park...but just not to let us to have a place. Suck eggs laaa... Does that means people in lorries got no right to shop? F*ck it man, all we want is to take a walk around and check out is there something special for chirstmas presents. Zzzzzzzz...

C'mon la! NOOB SHOPPING CENTERS! If there's a chance someday in the future, for sure I won't make a shopping center like this.

Sienz, most of the friends are going to cun camp3 this year except me. Haiz...
starting tomorrow, sure lagi bored...no friend online, no ppl come out play ball...Zzz
2week+ who want employ me?
Damn, maybe should find some jobs like promoter. Seem like they only need you to work for them a day or two, and the pay would be okay.
Haiz, that's all for today. Ciaoz

BASKETBALL!

Sienz! SPM finish already. Chinese paper?
Suck la...damn hard. Don't bother to give it second taught, really can die.

Well, atleast SPM is over!
But...everyday rain...
yesterday rain today rain =.=
then there goes mum nagging again

Me: Ma, later I go out ah.
Mum: Go where?
Me: Basketball la...
Mum: got thunder still want play ball? later you become like the fella in the news paper..
Me: ....


Sien right?
Fren ajak play ball in d morning, can't go again. Why?
Cause need to go for medical check up. =.="
Looks like I gotta get throught the doctor's permission only can get myself into the Ns camp.
please don't say i too fat then kena tangguh. if kena tangguh i rather not to go forever!

That's all for today.
tata~

Regret?

REGRETS?
too many things....
what i'd said, what i'd done, what i'd not said & what i'd not done.
sorry....sorry...sorry...sorry yet sorry are still the hardest word to say.
it's pointless, yea i'm emo...
the dudes say, emo r meant for girls...
ok...i got what it meant
when will it come to an end? i think never...
the chinese says...failure is the way to sucess...
as for me, i failed n i will never get up agn...
never is the word.......
i sucked, i doomed, what i loser...
what's not meant to be done is done, there's a better tomorrow? will it be the word never agn?

|S|U|C|K|!

WHAT I'VE DONE?
AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!
IT'S A MOST STUPID MOVE EVER!!!!!!!!
NOW WHAT? SOMEONE HANG ME PLSSSS~!

06 Dec 09, Sunday.

Skipped church again.
Don't know why, it just seem so far far away from god..
I can't remember was the last time i prayed quietly...
It's like missing something from the part of life but just don't feel like going that place anymore!
Perhaps, just scared people to ask me about results & also the future studies and stuff.
Man, hate it when this happens! Really lazy to think all bout it..the feelings sucks
It's really stucked in the middle wondering, childishly...
Thinking, hey...why aren't there any replies from friends?
What are friends meant to be for?
To lend you thier helping hand when you need them? to lend you their pairs of ears when you need somebody to give you comfort and advice?
Everything seem gone totally wrong, maybe it just my fault of not being a good-enough friend.
It seem that people will only care much about you when they needed your help, and you will be totally forgotten and abandoned.
It may also been a great reason why I don't dare to go after a girl, no faith? maybe everything was just me. I not as close as how other friends are to their parents, they could just share with the thier parents about everything, well atlesat most of the things but not me. It like, so damn f*cking hard to get somebody to listen to me. Perhaps it's just my attitude. The feelings is weird, when you first taught somebody actually care about you, and then suddenly he/she just abandoned you at the side. Hell, time to get over it. I really gotta think all-over-again and start changing, gotta learned to be a better self, can't depend on others right? But still, I don;t think we are meant to be together, we are from 2 different world, totally opposite, still, you're so beautiful~ that's is always the truth! Goodbyes!

SPM punya 喜、怒、唉、乐！

SPM!
2 more subjects to go - Chemistry and Chinese
It means 2 more days of school.
Most of the friends going to finish thier last paper on 8th but the chinese class gotta stay till 14th Dec..Sad, 6 days! Just gotta wait till 14th and it's game over.

First thing first! I wanna thank all the friends I had around me through the whole secondary life, esspecially during form5!
Also, special thanks to few friends here:

• Aaron & Gary for introducing hardstyle & trance + chatting everything about IT's & Games, it really makes you feel re-charged when you can goes along with the bits!
• Shivvone for the earphone! - I spoiled mine 2 days before spm, thanks to her I can continue listening music from my mp4.
• Joe, Tay and the gang for the time n space to help up with the last minute studies!
  
• Shaatesh & the gang for being good friends, spending time together and can tahan with my low EQ's.
  
• Teachers! - Thanks for all the guidance and patience you had on me, specially to Pn. Nik the one making jokes always, Mr. Lim for not giving up hope on my addmaths, Pn. Guna for the Man in the Mirror by MJ....
• The basketball gang that gave me advice & support when I was so emotionally down.
• Mum & dad with the support always!

So many people to thank with. Thank you for walking throungh this part of life in my secondary school life! Please forgive my wrong doing, thank you for laughing even when my joke ain't funny.

Well, here's a short update. I really like to call it 'SPM punya 喜、怒、唉、乐！'

喜!
Hmmm..喜?
LIKEY!!!!
Hahaha, maybe just because of the unstability of hormones inside the body,
seem like having a crush on some body again?
LoL!
Okay lah, this she is really diff from anyone..
Suddenly it's like 'SHE's THE ONE!' *rofl*
The Angel fall from the sky...
Basically it's like she around all the time,
Her smiles are just so sweet!
Belief it or not? It's really like what the songs lyrics always goes with,
'she's the first and the last t
Friendly, active, open-minded..bla bla bla,
sorry la I'm not good in describing things.
before this there nothing but as it carries on for sometime,
it's like been 'strucked' by her..
too bad la, as long as I know her family quite rich,
according to her she's going overseas to continue with her studies next year.
No more chance lu..can only see her one more day, that's it!
Once was thinking should I like I ask her out or something,
ofcause didn't dare to do so...maybe just stay as friends huh?
Planing to pay her a visit next year, if got time+money la =)

怒!
Nothing much la..
Just bit tulan with some noob a$$ when I were reading Namewee's blog.
He talk like a 3 yr-old kid, talking rubbish around, commenting on chinese.
Haiz, government really give bad impressions to others la.
Why la like this?
In the text book they always say we must learn how to live in a country
in peace and harmony. =.=

唉!~
唉~ My addmaths and physics paper..
Hopefully can get me into MMU la...
Dissapointed with myself la, dah biasa tak belajar sungguh2,
last minute also 'buat hantam' only.

乐!
Yes! 2 more paper to go!
Haopefully can go genting with friends la, but looks like gotta depend on my dad's decision.
NS in kubu bharu, mana tau same camp with chin yoong..
Good also la, CNY can tumpang his car balik tsm.
3 weeks holiday and then NS!
Really in holiday mood ad, holiday where are you~