Back to the emo world.

Yupe, I know it sounds pathetic. Sometimes it just so hard to control your own emotions. Things just tends to happen at a time to bring one's feeling down.
MJ left the world. People all around the world are talking about him. His pass. From he first stands on stage at the age of 5 till today. He'd become famous. How many people mourn for him, miss him because of his death? No body knows, his voice, no matter how stays in our heart.

That wasn't it. How would you feel, when you even failed in getting a girls number? Just the darn number! Ya, small matter. No it's NOT! I regreting now, for not staying with the decision I made. I should not have think about anyone anytime at this age. It's just not the right time yet. SPM is so freaking near, and i know i have not done any part of revision yet! Yes, indeed it was amazing seeing me to advice a friend. Telling him, failure is not the end of the world, it's just the begining! Indeed, I really didn't give-up at the first place. Not even abit before my cousin sisters.

Saturday, it was open-day. Ok, I got my report card. What was my result? I got 6 G's on the list!
Parents will just get the nagging started, again with the 'grandpa/grandma stories'.

And so, Sunday just droped by. I tot it were to be exciting meeting my cousins. It had been sometime that they went overseas for studies and work. At first, indeedn it was exciting meeting them. As they their conversation continues after dinner, it really put me into doom. Why? Because...
1. They are freakingly good in their studies.
2. I was staying left behind, out of topic. Sitting alone, listening to music while waiting time to pass.
3. They talk about going shopping, going movie, going vacation and stuff. As example, 'When was the last time we went Taiwan?' "I think it was in 2006" 'Eh, no la...Mine was 2005' .....
4. They always get to have something much advanced, and mostly they will get what they wants!
5. They talk to me about scholarships, which I know it's IMPOSSIBLE for me to get.

C'mon la weih! Money, everything it's about MONEY! I know la my parents can't effort to give me these. I don't wanna make my parent's feel bad about it just becasue they can't treat me exactly like my aunties or uncles treat my cousins. It was like once in a blue moon i get to watch movies with friends in cinema. I was like NEVER been to countries like Taiwan? I don't even have the chance. The last time i went overseas was years back. Going to China for a vacation, and I'm only 5yr old! They don't have to care if they really lost their essential items, their parents can effort to replace new ones for them! Argh! Also, even fail in asking number from a girl! Life sux! Zzzz... Get me outta here!